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16 Wednesday Jan 2013

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I asked someone I admire and respect enormously what she thought I should write a poem about, this was her excellent suggestion. Just why do we lable people?

 

 

Why’s so much in this world so fundamental?
When did we get so damned judgmental?
Bullying on Facebook, blocking on Twitter,
At what time in hist’ry did we – er
Not think it rough?

We read a text message and immediately find
We reach a conclusion a long way off kind.
Open a paper and everything’s labels,
Isn’t it time to turn the tables?
And say, “Enough!”

She’s not a slapper, she’s not a slut,
No party pooper, she’s a good time girl – but
She might be a daughter or even a mother,
Someone’s partner, someone’s lover,
All good ‘labels’, off the cuff…

Resisting the Urge to Shop

10 Thursday Jan 2013

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There is one shop that I simply find it impossible to pass by…. it’s an Aladdin’s den, I just cannot resist it. It’s my Abercrombie & Fitch, my Christian Dior, my Aston Martin ….. oh, you get the picture… Suffice it to say, it’s magnificent….

Jewel-like items in the window,

Toys for every ‘puter geek,

Gadgets, gizmos, neat contraptions,

Just enough to snare the weak.

Talk on Face Time to a client,

Who’s working out in Timbuktu,

Marvel, as you hold your phone up,

That she’s staring back at you.

Test the latest sexy puties,

Each a feast for greedy eyes,

Try out all the plug-ins, add-ons,

Corroborate! Accessorize!

Tablets, minis, maxis, smart phones,

Cases make your mind just boggle,

Adaptors, hard drives, games for experts,

Launch your back-up, learn to toggle.

I simply cannot pass this shop,

Without YEARNING – I’m always torn,

Should I buy some house essentials?

Or settle for some techno porn?

I may pass by if I’m in company,

But I’m quite lost if I’m alone,

Can’t resist the latest tablet,

Or this year’s must-have, mobile phone.

But chances are, I’ll drag you in,

And, once in, you won’t turn back.

You’ll walk out with an Apple Air

Or the iPhone or  the Mac…..

The A List?

08 Tuesday Jan 2013

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You can barely turn on the TV without some reality programme featuring “celebrities” tackling a challenge new to them. Forgive my cynicism, but much of the time we can be forgiven for barely recognising many of them

I have written a poem about those people, actors, singers, sportswomen and men etc., who are lured out of (semi-) retirement and obscurity and the fickle public who make or break them…

I once was the toast

Of film, of TV.

Couldn’t open a paper

Without something ’bout me.

I was the face of the 80s

I was hip, I was hot

Now I’m just me

I’m not known, I’m just NOT.

Now I’m deffo not A list

Or B. Maybe C

But I need the exposure

On prime time TV.

So I’ll enter the jungle

Eat kangaroo penis

To remind you – vaguely

As to just where you’ve seen us.

Put my body through hell

And humiliation

But I’ll be on the lips

Of each bod in the nation.

I’ll tackle the bitching

Of Celeb Big Brother

So I’m not considered

As just A N other.

I’ll dance or I’ll skate my way

Into your brain

But come a new year

I’ll be forgotten again.

The Christmas Present

07 Monday Jan 2013

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My Christmas present to myself was to use some of the money from the sale of my house to put myself through a couple of months of intense neurological physiotherapy rehabilitation targeted to suit my condition (Multiple Sclerosis) and for my specific muscular problems. I am currently having physiotherapy 6 out of 7 days a week and can not only feel but see the changes in my body.
I have written a poem about this…
My Christmas present to myself
Was a deliberate attack on my personal health.
I have MS, I’m in a chair,
But need to walk from here – to there,
Across my own room, around my home,
Not with help! Entirely alone.
So check on the net, “rehabilitation”
To find something suiting my situation.
Drugs and booze was all I could find,
I don’t do drugs, I DO like wine,
But neither were remotely right for me,
I need intense physiotherapy…
So in goes “neuro” and up comes a team
Devoted entirely to what I need.
Hobbs neuro-physio, stars one and all,
Take photos in order that I recall
Just how bad my posture at the start
To review each week, and I take heart,
From an upright stand, an elegant sit,
I feel better! I feel fit!
Disregard the spasms! Ignore the pain!
My body starts heeding instructions again!
A deep stretch here, a knee-bend there,
Hands on my legs or my “derrière”,
Core muscles engaged, I push through my thighs,
To stand, to sit, to mobilise.
I’m cooking on gas, a gal on a mission,
I’m feeling good, I’m in remission.
I’ll do every exercise asked of me
To make me looser, my muscles free…
All this to walk toward, stand and hug
Every one of those people I happen to love…

Wannabe

03 Thursday Jan 2013

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I wannabe famous

I don’t know what for

I’m not good at much,

Just know I want more.

Know I can’t act

Know I can’t  sing

I’ve really no talent

I just want some bling.

Want a car by Ferrari

A suit by Versace

To be seen at a premiere

Or an after show party.

I’ll streak at the rugby

To get on TV

My body’s not perfect

But I will be seen.

I’ll ‘out’ you on Facebook

I’ll block you on Twitter

Won’t  play by the rules

I’ll gossip, I’ll titter.

I’ll climb into bed

With an ‘A’ list celeb

Sell my tale to the tabloids

– No avoiding my web

I’ll shaft my own sibling

To get a new ‘friend’

Don’t care who I hurt

It’s a means to an end.

I’m a girl on a mission

I don’t give a damn

Who cares who I hurt

So you know who I am.

THE HAIR CUT

01 Saturday Dec 2012

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A chapter from my new upcoming young adult novel.

Then Saturday suddenly came. The hours up till then seemed to telescope away from Dante, in the wrong direction. So much so, he volunteered to clean his mum’s car and then all the neighbours’ cars for a small amount of cash, just to fill in the time. Once he’d done that he picked the French beans from his mother’s allotment and dug up her new potatoes. Looking at his watch, he fond it was still only 9.15 so he filled in the rest of the time topping and tailing and blanching those beans that he had not put aside for supper to put in the freezer. All of this eventually took him to 9.45 and he figured that if he walked extra slowly he could get to Rosie’s salon pretty much on time.

He found himself semi-skipping/running and then deliberately slowing down, so eager was he to get to his destination. He kind of marched on the spot every time he got to a pedestrian crossing and waited for the lights to change twice before sauntering over the road and still he got there with minutes to spare.

When he turned into the alley he found that there was a babble of noise coming from the other end of it and on reaching it he saw why. There was a gaggle of animated young mums with their babies in buggies, all sitting chatting at tables outside the shop. The mums all had delicious looking mugs of coffee, chocolate and tea, the babies all had juice in one form of cup or other – bottles, beakers, sippy cups.

He stepped onto the threshold and two glass doors slid open to reveal an interior that was all wood and chrome. Beautiful spalded oak seemed to snake across the floorboards to a coffee bar on the far side of the room, with bar stools along its length. Any handrails and chairs were made to match the floor, with huge, enveloping cushions on them. The chrome just finished off every edge of furniture or piece of hairdressing tool. Looking up at the ceiling, it was as if Dante were looking at an upturned boat – all exposed beams and ribs, intricately interwoven to create a skeletal wooden frame. And holding up this miracle of a ceiling was the most wondrous feature of all: the central, main supporting column was a gigantic aquarium. From top to bottom there were beautiful jewel-like fishes swimming through coral and sunken wreckage that sat on tiny glass shelves that formed part of the walls of the pillar’s interior. It was an exquisitely wrought piece of furniture that gave the whole room a quality of light and movement normally lacking from such a place and the effect was stunning. Every chair in the salon had a view of the pillar and he noticed that most clients just seemed to sit there in silence, gazing at the aquarium’s reflection in the mirrors infront of them, mesmerised. Consequently, there was no babble of senseless conversation, instead a girl at the end of the coffee bar was playing some beautiful classical guitar music – Rodrigo or Villa Lobos, he thought.

He threw himself into the nearest chair and breathed in. He instantly noticed that the other feature of salons that he loathed with a passion was absent. There were none of the pungent smells he normally associated with these places, the lingering and to him overpowering smell of soap and perfume. Looking closer at the ceiling he noticed that there were huge extraction fans at either side of the roof and wooden fans that beat clean air around the room. The only wonderful smell that was persistent and powerful was the aroma of freshly brewed coffee from the bar at the end of the salon.

The baristas at the coffee bar, two of them, identical twins, by the look of it, created a seemingly endless production line of the amazing concoctions he had seen the mums drinking outside. You could smell the cinnamon and ginger at thirty paces. And beyond them, squeezed into a small circle of space, a young man in a jester’s costume was teaching the 7-16s to juggle. It was utter magic! He could see why Rosie had said it would weave its spell on him.

He leaned back in a chair, watching the clown fish wriggling through the sea anemone and the angel fish delicately bobbing in and out of the sea grass in the tank, when a voice from somewhere behind his right shoulder said, “Hi Dante, cool, huh?”

Rosie had come out of a small internal room, which Dante had previously overlooked, clutching a large box of curlers under one arm. “I’ll be with you in a mo, I just have to put these in Mrs McElderry’s hair and pop her under a dryer….if you fancy a coffee or something, just ask Claire or Charlie to make you one. Doesn’t matter which one you ask, they’ll both answer to either name since few of us can tell them apart!” she said grinning.

Dante found himself grinning back “I think I’ll do that, thanks.” He walked over to the coffee bar and the twin nearest to him said, I think I peg you for a hot chocolate guy, yes?” He nodded and before he could say anything further, she went on, “And all the added extras?” And when he nodded a second time, she smiled and said, “For what it’s worth, I’d just go with the flow and let her do her thing. She knows what she’s doing as you can tell from this place!”, and she waved her arm around to indicate the décor of the salon.

A few minutes later he found himself sipping the most delicious hot chocolate he’d ever tasted. It was clearly made with 75% cocoa solids that had been melted and added to a heady mix of cream and warm milk. There was a swirl of whipped cream with the faintest frosting of ginger, cinnamon and cocoa, a large milk flake, six maltesers and a handful of red and green M and Ms. He went at it with gusto and when he got to the bottom of the mug, he found little knobs of chocolate, that hadn’t quite melted, which he scooped up with his index finger.

Dante was seated at a high stool at the coffee bar and was lost in reverie and savouring the flavour of his mug of chocolate when he felt a tap on his shoulder and a familiar voice in his ear, ”I’m ready for you now.”

He swung round and found Rosie grinning at him, with a towel wrapped around her neck and a scissor belt round her waist. “You ready for me?” she asked.

He nodded and followed her obediently to a chair that she led him to, with a commanding view of the whole salon. “Now, I have a theory, Dante,” Rosie said, “It’s such a long time since you last had your hair cut, that it’s going to come as a bit of a shock to you to see it all go… so I intend to blindfold you whilst I am cutting.”

He looked at her in astonishment. “What?!” he exclaimed.

“Well, kind of,” she responded. “We are going to put these sunglasses on you, which I’ve tinkered with, so you can’t see anything through them, and you are going to give me carte blanche to do what’s necessary….”

Dante gulped. “You can do anything?” he said.

“Pretty much” she smiled at him. “But there’s no pressure. If you don’t want me to cut your hair today, then come back when you are ready to take the plunge!”

“But what if I don’t like it?” he asked.

“Trust me, you will! But if you don’t, judging by how much you have got of it now, it won’t take long to grow out any way!”

Dante thought about this and about how he had somehow trusted this woman implicitly since their very first meeting, closed his eyes, took a deep breath and mumbled, ”OK, do your worst!”

“Sorry, I didn’t quite catch that!” Rosie chuckled, “Was that a carte blanche do what you’ve gotta?”

“Yes!” Dante hissed. ”But don’t push your luck!”

”OK,” Rosie said, now businesslike, ”Put these on.” And she handed him a pair of large aviator sunglasses that had pieces of black duct tape stuck over the lenses. “Now sit back, relax, as much as you can, listen to Amelia playing her guitar, and let me work my magic.”

Nervous at first, he sat slightly forward, on the edge of his seat, but soon found himself lounging back into the squidgy pillow and losing himself in the beautifully cadenced guitar music. It was the lovely lyrical slow movement and he found himself almost drifting off to sleep…

He realised with a start that the click of the scissors was rhythmical and soothing and the faint tug of the razor reassuring. Straightening up he berated himself. What was he thinking? How could he have allowed himself to be talked into this? He was beginning to feel a cold breeze on his neck – not a good sign, because that meant she had chopped all his hide-in hair off! “Aren’t you going a little far?” he ventured.

“Nothing ventured, nothing gained!” Rosie responded jauntily. And then, as if sensing his unease, she said quietly, ”I’m nearly done. Just hold still for a second whilst I put the finishing touches to my masterpiece!” As if the air had been quietly let out of him, Dante found himself relaxing back into the cushion again. Rosie made a few last adjustments then said with satisfaction, “You’re done! Want to take a peek?”

He gulped hard, and then nodded very slowly. “I think so,” he said.

“OK,” Rosie said. “Now, this will come as quite a shock to you. It is radically different. It is much shorter, it’s a much cleaner cut and fashionable, but it looks seriously cool!” And then she breathed in and took his glasses off, blocking the mirror beyond, “And I’ve coaxed a stunner out from under all that hair –you really are a lady killer!”

Stepping to one side, she revealed her handiwork with a flourish. He stared at himself, utterly fascinated. Someone he did not recognise stared back at him from the mirror. His reflection revealed a young man with quite an oval face but with a square, determined jaw. The dimple in his right cheek was very pronounced and he had a slight indentation in his chin too that he suspected might become more prominent when he got angry or stressed.

Dante had always thought his eyes were his best feature but actually, they were remarkable. The blue of the brightest sapphire or the bluest volcanic pool, they were wide and slightly almond shaped and big, and anyone observing them felt as if they could easily lose themselves in them. He smiled broadly at his reflection and immediately noticed his chipped tooth. He smiled again because it gave him a slightly piratical air…

It was then that he really noticed what Rosie had done with his hair. I mean, yes, he’d noticed there was a fraction on his head compared to what he’d been used to but it was how she’d achieved this shorn Dante… She had cut the hair on a slight bias so it was really contemporary and yet classic at the same time. No flouncy fringe a la Hugh Grant, and yet he did have a fringe and despite his misgivings, it really suited him. He looked sharp, slick, complete…

“So what’s the verdict?” Rosie ventured.

“Bloody marvellous.”

First Kiss

26 Friday Oct 2012

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This is a short extract. slightly rewritten, from a forthcoming novel….I hope you enjoy it…

I was in the taxi, attempting to appear calm and failing. You have just walked into my life unexpectedly. From nowhere. A mercurial woman. A clever woman. A woman who loves to look after her loved ones. Cook for them, cajole them, care for them. So why do I feel that tell-tale slide in my chest every time I think of you? Why does the mere mention of your name make me smile from ear to ear? Why do I long for just a glimpse of you?

The station approaches. We have agreed to meet here and find somewhere to eat. My legs feel leaden. Can I drag myself free of my seat and out of the taxi? Dare I?  You said you would meet me here…that we would find a restaurant… But do you feel the same? Do you want to drink me in, like I do you?

The taxi comes to a standstill. So does my heart. I look out the window. And there you are. There at the entrance to the station. Oh God! The moment of truth!  I can see that you are anxiously scanning every car. Then I realise…you are searching for me! Trying to find me! So that means…..OHHHHHHHH! Bliss! You feel the same!

I leap out, give you a quick hug and say, ‘Come on, let’s go!” We do. We go to the restaurant. We give the food our full attention. Seemingly any way.That is what anyone looking on might think. Yet underneath… Underneath my calm exterior….

Standing close to you and my legs can barely support me. Sitting near you and I long to wind my leg around yours. If you push past me I feel a heat in my groin and a brush fire of desire…When you throw back your head and laugh, I want to bottle it. The way that it infuses your cheekbones. The way it brushes your pupils with diamonds of light. The way it whispers along the curves of your mouth.  The way it sometimes pours like musical lava deep from your throat, infecting all who hear it with joy. Just the scent of you makes me weak, intoxicated.

I marvel at the mobility of your face. How its symmetry shifts with each changing mood. I enjoy watching how other people respond to you, with genuine warmth, with real affection. How your mere presence infects them with life. Animates them.  Yet every second I want to share you with others, I want to keep you near me, keep you close. We stay an hour, it seems like a year. As we leave the building, my hand brushes yours and we both start with the electricity of it…

We get in your car, and I say, breathlessly, ‘Just drive. Anywhere, but make it private.”  You drive. I just sit and watch you. Watch the way your hands effortlessly turn the wheel. How your nose crinkles when you concentrate. How when you overtake, your tongue pokes out over your bottom lip… and all I can think of is kissing you.

A quiet lane.. we pull in to the entrance to a wood. You turn to me and say, ‘Is this sensible? It doesn’t feel like it! It feels like madness!” And I just take your face between my hands. I push the lock of hair that has dropped on to your forehead back away from your face with my thumb. I look into your eyes and say, “No, it isn’t sensible! Yes it is mad, but I really need to kiss you.” And bending my face to yours, I do.

The touch of my lips on yours sets up a slow burn…a tumbling sensation, a breathlessness. I can feel, no hear, the percussion of my heartbeat as my tongue explores yours, dances with yours…I want to eat you, devour you, but slow, slow. I want to savour every morsel, every nuance of you. Drink you up, hold you close. I want to feel that shiver of recognition as skin meets skin. I trail my tongue under your chin, down the back of your neck. I nibble your ear, caress its inner edge with the tip of my tongue. I bury my head in your hair, breathing in the scent of you. You become my inspiration. You are my breath. As I kiss you, I feel that long, slow, free-fall that takes me to the edge. I pull away and look at you. You are beautiful! Did you know that? I make you a promise. Not a day will go by from this moment on, when you are not kissed. Kissing you is what I want to do for the rest of my life on this earth.

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